Its Last day of 2010

2010 Has been quite an eventful year for me and all those related to me somehow. Never in my life i had any idea that there would be a day when i would be sitting in front of my computer and writing a blog about my personal life and in so detail. Life has its own ways and he does some strange things to you.

As 2011 is about to dawn a strange sense of emptiness and realization has dawned in . What have i achieved and what have i lost in the year that 2010 was.
Perhaps the realization will take sometime to sink in.
It could not be worse that as 2011 is coming to an end i cannot even call her and wish her. I cannot ring her up and say Hey dear may we be together for this as well as many years to come. the promise we made to each other on dawn of 2010 seems like a long lost one as 2011 dawns.

Let the blog be my mouthpiece. Let this be my errand to convey her my message.
This is it

Hey Nishu Dear
Its been 5 days down and 25 more days to go. Phew the wait's killing me. As i pray to god that in the new year i am gifted with the blessing of the almighty to have you on my side.
As of now on the ve of a new year, i wish you A very happy new year. may all the Happinees of the world be bestowed upon you. May each part of the creation bestow you with immense success and joy and whatever be your decision, i would continually pray for your well being in the year to come and in all years to come. You are and will always be the princess of my dreams.
Nishu Dear, I wish you a Very Happy new year 2011.
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Yours
AKJ
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For the year that has just gone by various memories flash through my mind and forms a Kaleidoscope , so colorful that it is hard to define it.
From the fun and frolic to the success of NIOT and from the fun of being with someone so caring to the pain of being apart.
It has been an eventful year would be an understating.

As the hours of clock tick by my typing speed is increasing perhaps frustrated at myself for not being face to face with you or the thought of not being with u ever.

I would also like to extend warmest greetings of new year to all my friends and followers of BLOG. May u bve united with the person whom u so desire in the new year. This is my wish for each one of you.
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The story.....
So the xams just about got over and we were back to same old days.. Meeting here and there and spending some wonderful moments. the moments i always cherish. The moments where she introduced me to her best friend. (It is so important for girls u know.)
life was limping back to normal. Now days took a reversal. Almost done with her bachelor's she decided to appear for MCA entrance exam. So now she was studying hard or so it seemed. She started taking coaching for MCA entrance. All this meant she was away for long periods on sundry jobs.

It was so wonderful. Meeting at some locations being with each other and sharing life's tiniest details.
Days always don't remain the same.
Signing off with warm wishes for everyone...


So far away...
the beaches which you walk.

Yet so close...
always in my heart.

So far away...
I cannot touch your hand,
I cannot feel your breath,
I cannot hold you close.

Yet so close...
I can feel you in my heart,
I can see you in my mind,
I can hear you in my ears.

You can go so far away...
You can travel to the ends of the earth...

But as long as I have your love...
As long as I have you...
You will always be close.

For,
As sure as the sun rises,
And the tides will change,
I will always love you,
An you will always be close to my heart.

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Love
AKJ

The deadline of My life... I'll WAIT

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So my story is now in public domain and all of you are part of the same. A long and extended family i would say. The blog has helped me connect back to her. And I would like to share an important part of the story which recently happened sidestepping the flow that was going on.

We broke off on 12 November 2010. it took me 1 month to realize how much i missed her and how badly i was dependent on her. She was my life. The blog started on December 12 2010 and exactly 13 days later on Christmas eve. Few days after we got back talking together. I popped the question about us. She was not yet ready to commit back. Not right now atleast. She wanted a month to think , a complete month without my phone calls, without my messages, without me. I would get the reply on 25 january.

It took me 1 month to realize what she has been for me and that sans her i am so alone, so desolate. i hope this 1 month makes her realize the same. This 1 month is going to be one of the longest of my life and i hope the wait is worth it.

the blog is going to be my only medium of passing any messages to her in the meantime. I hope all of you will be with me in such an hour.

25 jan , i will wait for you. It just could not be longer. I hope the wait is worth it. Pray for me guys. Its all that i am left with in this hour. Its going to be quite a vacant new year. She was the first person i talked to when 2010 dawned at 00:00:01 on 1/1/10. Never thought would have such an end to this year.

In the meantime the story continues Guys.....

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Note:- the story would be kept short in coming week , exam time guys .... :(

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Finally it was fest time, In the run up to the fest almost all of my big decision were taken with her consent. What to do? Whether the design suits or not? What to say to the techer with whom i had a bad run in ? She was partner to all my decisions.

And the fests were very hectic. The day before the fest was ... what do i say.... don't have a better vocabulary But i feel "Chaos" would be a damn understatement. 40 odd people at college scene. Doing everythin from hanging banners to getting lan in place. To making the robotics arena ready. As i said Chaotic would be an understatement.

As if the problems were not less, One of the accounts of the fest froze out of a sudden due to some problems in banking side. The net effect of all this was that those 4 days were like hell for me. I had no time to be anywhere forget about talking to her.

Extended days without talking to your lady can have disastrous consequences as i realized. She had an accident in those days where her toe was ripped off. I came to know of it a full 4 days later. That was so bad, i cant even describe.

the fests were immediately followed by two things:-

1. Exams............ IPU SUCKS

2. Post fest management. Account settlement and all. another of the areas where none of team mates showed much enthusiasm. And my nature or my habits prevented me to leave that where it was. I am no accountant and it took me days to figure out how to manage an account and how to get the papers in order god enough for a government audit process. All the technicalities were getting too much for me. I was almost into depression.

Almost..

i was...

I was hospitalized twice in those days. Very few people know that. But yes Excessive stress does have its consequences and it was showing. There were a few things that i left to some of my friends to complete in those days when i was down and could not cope.

And you know something---- those tasks got completed almost 6 months later and some of them are still pending.

thats exactly why i prefer to do all the stuff myself. But that approach has its own disadvantages as is quite visible.

See...

such a long blog and still no mention of her, when the blog was supposed to be about her. If i could not get a scope to write about her now U can guess how much available i was those days to be with her. none.

When we eventually met after exams we were like meeting after a period of 20 odd days. I don't remember exactly . She is much better in remembering the dates and days. Sachhi.

... Signing off for today guys................

25 Jan sigh..... 1 down 30 more days to go... :'(

Its going to a long wait......

But i will wait coz this comes once in a life....

Only for you sweetheart...

This heartache I just can't explain,
All I ever feel is pain,
That passion I long for true love for real,
Her gentle caressing what I long to feel,
A love that when we are together
we'd rather die than be apart,
A love that when our lips meet
I can feel the kiss from her heart.
I'll wait forever to have this special love,
I'll even wait for all eternity in the heavens above,
All this waiting for her may cause me pain and strife,
But I'll wait, because this love comes once in a life.

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Love

AKJ