So my story is now in public domain and all of you are part of the same. A long and extended family i would say. The blog has helped me connect back to her. And I would like to share an important part of the story which recently happened sidestepping the flow that was going on.
We broke off on 12 November 2010. it took me 1 month to realize how much i missed her and how badly i was dependent on her. She was my life. The blog started on December 12 2010 and exactly 13 days later on Christmas eve. Few days after we got back talking together. I popped the question about us. She was not yet ready to commit back. Not right now atleast. She wanted a month to think , a complete month without my phone calls, without my messages, without me. I would get the reply on 25 january.
It took me 1 month to realize what she has been for me and that sans her i am so alone, so desolate. i hope this 1 month makes her realize the same. This 1 month is going to be one of the longest of my life and i hope the wait is worth it.
the blog is going to be my only medium of passing any messages to her in the meantime. I hope all of you will be with me in such an hour.
25 jan , i will wait for you. It just could not be longer. I hope the wait is worth it. Pray for me guys. Its all that i am left with in this hour. Its going to be quite a vacant new year. She was the first person i talked to when 2010 dawned at 00:00:01 on 1/1/10. Never thought would have such an end to this year.
In the meantime the story continues Guys.....
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Note:- the story would be kept short in coming week , exam time guys .... :(
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Finally it was fest time, In the run up to the fest almost all of my big decision were taken with her consent. What to do? Whether the design suits or not? What to say to the techer with whom i had a bad run in ? She was partner to all my decisions.
And the fests were very hectic. The day before the fest was ... what do i say.... don't have a better vocabulary But i feel "Chaos" would be a damn understatement. 40 odd people at college scene. Doing everythin from hanging banners to getting lan in place. To making the robotics arena ready. As i said Chaotic would be an understatement.
As if the problems were not less, One of the accounts of the fest froze out of a sudden due to some problems in banking side. The net effect of all this was that those 4 days were like hell for me. I had no time to be anywhere forget about talking to her.
Extended days without talking to your lady can have disastrous consequences as i realized. She had an accident in those days where her toe was ripped off. I came to know of it a full 4 days later. That was so bad, i cant even describe.
the fests were immediately followed by two things:-
1. Exams............ IPU SUCKS
2. Post fest management. Account settlement and all. another of the areas where none of team mates showed much enthusiasm. And my nature or my habits prevented me to leave that where it was. I am no accountant and it took me days to figure out how to manage an account and how to get the papers in order god enough for a government audit process. All the technicalities were getting too much for me. I was almost into depression.
Almost..
i was...
I was hospitalized twice in those days. Very few people know that. But yes Excessive stress does have its consequences and it was showing. There were a few things that i left to some of my friends to complete in those days when i was down and could not cope.
And you know something---- those tasks got completed almost 6 months later and some of them are still pending.
thats exactly why i prefer to do all the stuff myself. But that approach has its own disadvantages as is quite visible.
See...
such a long blog and still no mention of her, when the blog was supposed to be about her. If i could not get a scope to write about her now U can guess how much available i was those days to be with her. none.
When we eventually met after exams we were like meeting after a period of 20 odd days. I don't remember exactly . She is much better in remembering the dates and days. Sachhi.
... Signing off for today guys................
25 Jan sigh..... 1 down 30 more days to go... :'(
Its going to a long wait......
But i will wait coz this comes once in a life....
Only for you sweetheart...
This heartache I just can't explain,
All I ever feel is pain,
That passion I long for true love for real,
Her gentle caressing what I long to feel,
A love that when we are together
we'd rather die than be apart,
A love that when our lips meet
I can feel the kiss from her heart.
I'll wait forever to have this special love,
I'll even wait for all eternity in the heavens above,
All this waiting for her may cause me pain and strife,
But I'll wait, because this love comes once in a life.
All I ever feel is pain,
That passion I long for true love for real,
Her gentle caressing what I long to feel,
A love that when we are together
we'd rather die than be apart,
A love that when our lips meet
I can feel the kiss from her heart.
I'll wait forever to have this special love,
I'll even wait for all eternity in the heavens above,
All this waiting for her may cause me pain and strife,
But I'll wait, because this love comes once in a life.
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Love
AKJ
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