To much has been happening around for past few days. I have been having some different type of conversations with her. Some Heartening some disheartening. put these are part and parcel of life. So after much thought and advices I have decided to go on with the Blog.
Some clarifications first on what has been happening till date.
1. Rustic does not mean-- Rural..
in my second post "Rustic and Shy" was used which is used to refer to Simple not RURAL. Although in isolation the word might mean that. No offenses though.
2. Repeatedly i am still asked why am i doing this? For what purpose? And that it is not going to lead to any fruitful result?
Well maybe, all that is true. But i reserve the Right to TRY. There is nothing else that i can do. I have learnt to balance my life better. Not hugely but even subtle advantages are noticeable in condition though.
3. I should try to concentrate on my so called first priority of life i.e. My projects and research
Well i have learnt to value important Human relations.tough way isn't it.
To admit one's follies,mistakes and shortcomings on a public forum is either construed as a mark of either boastfulness or idiocy. But this is neither. this is just to tell someone that yes I made few mistakes. Yes i was dumb enough. but I will not be so perennially.
I have seldom respected Human relationship. It is precisely why for a long time i did not even have enough faith in Friendship. For a person so private as me, you brought in me the changes that made me what i am today. You were, rather are someone with whom i could bare open all. There is none like you.
You know for sure one thing. i have never lied and will never lie to you. And moving on without you is beyond my thoughts is a fact. It was not destiny that we met and it is not destiny that we need to go on alone separately. It need not be. It was never meant to be that way. I believe we can change that destiny if it was there anywhere. The question is Do You?
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And Now friends , herewith I continue with my side of story Part 11.
and yes
Merry Christmas to all readers of this post
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After spending a couple of days in Agra and rejuvnating ourselves, we were abck in delhi and i was back in midst of a spectacularly disorganized fest. Everyone was working hard there with one problem Noone knew what we were doing and how that fit into the huge canvas until last day when Mr. broken legs intervened. BTW mr broken legs is better now. All the best to him for his speedy recovery.
In the midst of the fest, i was so engrossed that i scarcely could get the time to think anythin else. leave alone her. She was happy seeing me so engrossed in something i loved and i cherished that she did not mind. Love u for that dear.
So now fest was round the corner suddenly the unthinkable happened. Elections were announced in college. i never expected it to be timed so uselessly. i had no intention of standing in elections till last moment. But somehow at last moment all the pieces set themselves up and i won. i had become President of my college. WOW. that was great. Wasn't that
the first thing i did was to call her up and tell her that i had won the elections and i was president. She was so happy for me. Her voice betrayed that.
That whole evening was uselessly spent partying and i reached home late. i had a long chat with her that evening wherein she asked me " Now that u have become president u will be even more busy and u will have no time for me now isn't it?"
I :" No that won't happen. I will balance it off"
She:" No , you CAN'T. You cannot leave ur college jobs for meeting me that i know for sure"
I:" Nahi, aisa nahi hai. i will ind time for you. You are my life..( and all such things)"
I:" Are you happy or unhappy that i am president?"
she:" i am happy. I am thrilled for you. But deep down i am scared what will happen to us. You will be so much more busy with useless things up your mind"
I promised her that it won't be.
One of the promises that did not keep. I lament that to this day. Why o Why did that happen.
So some unexpected things happened in these few days. i had two fests at my disposal now. the cultural as well as the tech one. ( Why and how? that's a long and different story. that will also come up but sometime later!!)
and i was occupied to hilt. It was like i was in col from 9- 7 and sending emails to contacts and taking stock of account and money at home 9-12.
So much for a col fest.
that's all guys for the day.........
Signing off with a prayer that " Whoever u desire the most, may God grant you eternal place in his/her heart this christmas"
I loved the child in her
so innocent and sweet
The mischief in her eyes
the blush upon her cheek
The tender way she spoke
that showed me that she cared
The touch of her warm hand
that gently touched my hair
The smiles that we shared
that filled my life with glee
For when I was with her
I found the child in me
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Love
AKJ
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