So Now I knew her and as all my friends know I am a slow starter in friendships. (Jus a slow starter though later i more than dominate proceedings. Mr shake and Mr Broken legs are more than witness of this dominance).
i always digress too much isn't it. Anyways, So i was a slow starter , did not have too many instances of communications with her in initial instances. It was limited to customary greetings whenever i visited my friends. later on i once stayed at my friends for longer period and we had lunch together, this once converted into many instances in whole of may. We now chitchatted on various issues ranging from my college studies, my hindu days, her studies ( i was more than happy to help anyone in programming, the engineering side had kicked in u see), this conversation later on turned towards our personal life. Good use of summer vacations u see.
Once i was at the place and needed to buy a new Bag for myself. this was sometime in june mid. And after some hectic schedules at my intern place. So i was at my familiar locations in northern part of delhi with my old friend and new found friend. i wanted to go to buy a bag and this friend offered her expert help in buying one for me in the locales known to her.
So began our Bag buying spree ( 1 bag only waise ) How much time would that take. 10 mins flat. Job done now what? We decided to hang out together and we went to a nearby mall for lunch in sweltering june heat of delhi.
That was our first , what u call it... eh...... date.
we sat there for say 3-4 hrs, like true "Vellas" chit chatting on almost every topic under the sun. then it was time to say goodye for the day. That instance after wards we opened up a lot towards each other frequent phone calls messages etc.
Proposal.... Not yet not now dearest friends..... It took a whole lot of time...
Got to sign off for the day . but i will sign off with a poem i had dedicated to her long back....
Nothing stays the same.
Sunrise becomes sunset;
Morning turns into night;
An angry storm can turn
Into a gentle breeze;
A tiny seed can become a
Towering tree;
A lowly caterpillar
Transforms into a
Colorful butterfly;
A child grows into a man.
Life goes on.
Seasons change.
Circumstances change.
People change.
But I know
That I will always love you
No matter what happens
Or whatever changes
That will take place in
our lives..
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Love
AKJ
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A humble Request
Dear friends, Followers, well wishers
many people have asked me the purpose of the blog and what is it menat to convey and why public with some of the most intimate details of my life.
The answer is:-
I made some follies in my relationship, which turned for worse, follies on my part that are unforgivable ( as it seems) but the hopeful human heart expects the same. This blog is a way to pay respect to this girl who made my life and also ask for her forgiveness publicly.
I am recounting everythin that happened with us, maybe that will make the fate reignite the dwindling fire.
For others this may be a perfect guide to what not to do in a relationship, perhaps.
So a humble request to all of you:- i know that she is reading the same for sure. if all of you can leave a comment here for her I will be more than pleased.
Hoping for continued patronage.
Thanks
AKJ
Recounting the beautiful days of "HOW and WHEN" you started loving SOMEONE is actually the most heart touching and pleasure moments of life.
ReplyDeleteBECOMES A sweet memory for those who still ARE THE SAME and SAME is THEIR love for each other.
and A PAIN for those who LOST "it" on the account of their OWN FOLLIES .
but follies are always PRE-DICTED for a "human" on EARTH . but PERHAPS NOT ALWAYS in LOVE and RELATIONSHIPS. a sleek "mistake or stupidity" can turn out "HOW BIG???" is always a MYSTERY .
well it usually happens that you are very much DARING to talk to anonymous person with utmost Confidence and FAILS to tell whats there in your heart to the person for whom your heart BEATS !!!!!
and yeah I gave a general view! so maybe am wrong with my perception of your story! *apology* in case I am.
By The Way I loved your way of respecting THAT GIRL and feeling sorry for your follies through such thing!
Hope for the same in the GIRL's HEART(WHICH IS always ready to forgive follies). !!!!!!
AND PROPOSE HER if its not LATE ;);)
WITH BEST WISHES.
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Thanks NONA for ur comments....
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ReplyDeletedont hav my own words sir, dedicating few finest lines i came across
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There's something in your eyes that's far too revealing
Why must it be like this a love without feelin'
Something wrong with you I know
I see it in your eyes
Believe me when I say
It's gonna be okay
I told you from the start I won't be demanding
I won't be demanding
If you have a change of heart I'll be understanding
I'll be understanding
When love becomes a broken heart and dreams begin to die
Believe me when I say
We'll work it out some way
I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye
We've lost that loving touch we used to feel so much
I try to hide the truth that's in my eyes
The love without feeling
But when I feel we're not in love, I know I'm losing you
Believe me when I say
We'll work it out some way
I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want
I want what's best for you
And if there's something else that you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say goodbye
Don't say goodbye